Darkness Speaks
Poetic expression of shame
Feeling ashamed is still part of this game
The cowardice holds from once I came
The attraction I have seems to be always taken
The solutions from others maybe blatant
The standards are high and the shame down low
It is all a setup to drive out the pain
To remember myself and my self-proclaimed fame
No lowering standards and living disappointed
So I move forward with a broken heart instead
Don’t even know what I am crying about anymore
I feel like I’m carrying everything that’s in store
Don’t know any better despite everything I learned
We are all lost and confused with relationships I heard
Will life really be better with another someone?
Will it just be more complex or more fun?
Shame says I’m such a fucking loser
Most days I have no courage to ask her
I can imagine it all the ways I would love it
Then in reality I get stumped by what I covet
The conditioning runs deep with so many cords
So many reminders, all of the sorts
The environment needs to change or I will suffer
Shame won’t be the end of me that much I can tell you
