Collective Pain

A poem

Maura Finn

The collective shadow detach from me now,
Just let go, unhook and forget the “how”,
The projections and pains are everywhere,
Unavoidable and I don’t want to go there,
All these reminders of the darkness within,
I forgot how long that it has been,
Since I felt love or just good,
Feel good abut myself and understood,
Laughter comes and goes, I still feel heavy,
The darkness there always, won’t let go of me,
It’s not my shit, I deserve a new family,
I am expected to accept after what was done to me?
Abuse me, hate me, discard me, withhold love from me,
My mind may agree to states logically,
My feelings inside don’t ever want to lie,
Shame, hate, rage, sadness and then cry,
The pain is too much,
I just need some love and touch